AF on her way......AGAIN!!!!

Well it's day 32 of Cycle 58 for us and I'm 12 dpo according to my chart so AF should be do tomorrow.  I'm feeling the damn cramping and starting to spot.  I was feeling so optimistic of this cycle because we did so good with timing and it would be so great to find out we were pregnant finally for our 5th anniversary, but nope that ain't going to happen.  Is it too much to ask that we get pregnant naturally like woman are supposed to normally.  Why can't I be normal, why can hubby be normal.  Why do we have to go through all this pain of wanting to start a family only to get slapped in the face each month by the visit of Aunt Flo.  I'm so disappointed.  I guess it's true our only option is do IVF, if only it was free or covered by insurance then I would have jumped on that train years ago.  We're trying to pay off our current debt so we can hopefully try IVF down the road but we're not getting any younger and I don't want to put us in such crazy debt to start a family when in all honesty the procedure isn't guaranteed.  We can spend all this money and not even get pregnant, I've seen it many many time happen and I don't want us to be one of those couples.  I only ask that GOD hear our prayer and anguish and grant us a miracle of life, please hear us.


Mary

Our furbabies...

This is our Siberian Husky, 4 year old ICE and our kitty cat 5 year old PIXIE.  They are our babies and such cuddlebugs, I love them oh so much.


Mary

Our Story

So where do I begin.  Joe and I met at the end of 2000 when he started at the same place of employment that I was working.  He started on 12/18 and asked me out on 12/26, he sure works fast, lol.  I guess he knows a good thing when he sees it.  We went on our first date on 01/06/01, to The 99 Restaurant and then to a movie afterwards, I still remember what it was, Dracula 2000. We moved in together a year later and he proposed marriage on 12/24/02.  We were married on 10/29/05, right before my favorite holiday, Halloween.  We had a themed wedding which was great, we did have quite a few guests dress up which was a lot of fun.  We have now been married almost 5 years and no children as of yet, not for the lack of trying.  We've done all the testing and I have my issues and he has his, our only option is to have IVF (invitrofertilization).  As of right now we are not in the financial security to dish out thousands of dollars for something that isn't even definite.  We are now relying on our faith in the almighty to hopefully bless us with a miracle or two.  ;)

Mary