Well it's day 32 of Cycle 58 for us and I'm 12 dpo according to my chart so AF should be do tomorrow. I'm feeling the damn cramping and starting to spot. I was feeling so optimistic of this cycle because we did so good with timing and it would be so great to find out we were pregnant finally for our 5th anniversary, but nope that ain't going to happen. Is it too much to ask that we get pregnant naturally like woman are supposed to normally. Why can't I be normal, why can hubby be normal. Why do we have to go through all this pain of wanting to start a family only to get slapped in the face each month by the visit of Aunt Flo. I'm so disappointed. I guess it's true our only option is do IVF, if only it was free or covered by insurance then I would have jumped on that train years ago. We're trying to pay off our current debt so we can hopefully try IVF down the road but we're not getting any younger and I don't want to put us in such crazy debt to start a family when in all honesty the procedure isn't guaranteed. We can spend all this money and not even get pregnant, I've seen it many many time happen and I don't want us to be one of those couples. I only ask that GOD hear our prayer and anguish and grant us a miracle of life, please hear us.
Mary
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